Walter
has every right to be sad. To be dismayed and withdrawn, unyielding and
unresponsive as stone. His short life has already been rife with suffering,
discomfort, and injustice.
It’s
just not fair.
I’ve no
way to answer him. I cannot reason why this three-year-old child must do
without proper hygiene, nutrition, and shelter. No way to explain why he is not
pampered, doted upon, even spoiled by parents, aunts, grandmothers, and
babysitters. I can’t understand why my child cousins in the States have more
toys than they remember and more clothes than occasion. Why they have all
things soft, clean, and FDA and WHO approved.
On
Thursday I swoop Walter up again.
The
dirty bandage on his wrist is gone. His hands are still scabbed and oozing. In
the office I tuck in his shirt and tie his shoes, petite black moccasins with laces
wet from trailing the bathroom floor.
“Are
you finished potty?” I ask Walter as one of his hands scratches at his head.
His mouth opens and closes like that gasping fish. Like his baby brother trying
and trying not to cry.
“Wi,”
he vocalizes. I am impressed at how audible the syllable is.
Then
his mouth closes. He leans into me. Something steady.
“Okay,
let’s go wash your hands. Lave men, lave
men w’!” I take his unwashed hand and draw him after me back to the wash
basin.
He sticks
out those scabbed sore hands. Caramel marred with red, white, and angry pink
they cup over the lip of the sink, empty and expectant.
I pour
water, set the soap in his palms. Together we lather in between his fingers.
Then I rinse and send him on his way, holding back to refill the water bucket.
“Ale klas ou, Walter! Go to class!”
As I
fill the big bucket with a smaller one I watch Walter’ progress. He trips down
the hall with that toddler gait, headed towards the sunny day beyond, one hand
scratching his head.
At the
end of the corridor he stands before his classroom door for a moment. Then he trips
back up the hall to the office and peers around the doorframe.
“Walter?”
I call, still at the sink. “What are you doing?”
The
office is empty besides Jonas poring over translation homework on the far
bench. No arms reach out or calls welcome. Walter turns away. Shaking water
from my hands I swoop down on him, bring him down the hall and nudge him into
class. The last classroom before the sunshine of the courtyard.
Madame
Eunide, the classroom teacher, nods at me for returning one of her charges. Her
hands are overflowing these days as her assistant has started maternity leave.
She’s brought another ebony-eyed baby into this world of unanswered questions
and unexplained abominations.
Walter
trots back to his seat at a low table among his classmates. Toddlers of various
shapes and sizes sat in their wicker chairs, coloring in place. They are beautiful
children all. The most beautiful in the world. Hope, delight, and a miracle
each one. Somehow they are surviving; somehow they are shining still.
Walter
hasn’t smiled yet. He hasn’t laughed or formed a complete sentence. But he
remembers the warmth and welcome of the office. He didn’t tell me he came back
to the office that morning for one more hug or gentle word. I think he did.
We can’t
explain why, you or I. We can’t justify Walter’ suffering. We can’t justify the
suffering of the man on the ground who prefers dust to a bed. The suffering of
a baby without breath and parents without means. We can’t elucidate the
disparity of where we are born.
We can
confirm that poverty and privilege are not faults but opportunities. Those born
in poverty can grow—if those of us in privilege give them the chance.
We can’t
fix this world, you and I. Even together we cannot right all these wrongs or win
the tragedies to victories. We can’t keep the babies from dying.
We can
give food to the hungry and water to the thirsty we meet. We can visit the sick
and comfort those who mourn. We can tie shoelaces, fill buckets, and treat
wounds. We can love with abandon, in opposition to the dreadful abominations
all around us.
It
hurts to see all the wretchedness of the world. It helps to love in response. Even
if we never learn the names of those we love. God knows, and He’s watching us
to see what we will do when we encounter a man on the ground, a baby without
breath, or a child with scabies. Will we pass by? Or will we run towards the
sorrow with a song in our heart and Band-aids in our pockets, ready to bind up
the wounds of the brokenhearted and kiss the tears of the unsmiling?
As for
me, I’ll be there, in need of more Band-aids, voice lifted in tearful song.
“When he finally arrives, blazing in
beauty and all his angels with him, the Son of Man will take his place on his
glorious throne. Then all the nations will be arranged before him and he will
sort the people out, much as a shepherd sorts out sheep and goats, putting
sheep to his right and goats to his left.
34-36 “Then the King will say to those on his right, ‘Enter, you
who are blessed by my Father! Take what’s coming to you in this kingdom. It’s
been ready for you since the world’s foundation. And here’s why:
I was hungry and you fed me,
I was thirsty and you gave me a drink,
I was homeless and you gave me a room,
I was shivering and you gave me clothes,
I was sick and you stopped to visit,
I was in prison and you came to me.’
I was thirsty and you gave me a drink,
I was homeless and you gave me a room,
I was shivering and you gave me clothes,
I was sick and you stopped to visit,
I was in prison and you came to me.’
37-40 “Then those
‘sheep’ are going to say, ‘Master, what are you talking about? When did we ever
see you hungry and feed you, thirsty and give you a drink? And when did we ever
see you sick or in prison and come to you?’ Then the King will say, ‘I’m
telling the solemn truth: Whenever you did one of these things to someone
overlooked or ignored, that was me—you did it to me.’
41-43 “Then he will turn to the ‘goats,’ the ones on his left,
and say, ‘Get out, worthless goats! You’re good for nothing but the fires of
hell. And why? Because—
I was hungry and you gave me no meal,
I was thirsty and you gave me no drink,
I was homeless and you gave me no bed,
I was shivering and you gave me no clothes,
Sick and in prison, and you never visited.’
I was thirsty and you gave me no drink,
I was homeless and you gave me no bed,
I was shivering and you gave me no clothes,
Sick and in prison, and you never visited.’
44 “Then those ‘goats’ are going to say, ‘Master, what are you
talking about? When did we ever see you hungry or thirsty or homeless or
shivering or sick or in prison and didn’t help?’
45 “He will answer
them, ‘I’m telling the solemn truth: Whenever you failed to do one of these
things to someone who was being overlooked or ignored, that was me—you failed
to do it to me.’
46 “Then those ‘goats’ will be herded to their eternal doom,
but the ‘sheep’ to their eternal reward.”
~Matthew 25:31-46 MSG
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